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Azat jan, thans for suggestion. It's a good start. But my problem is bigger than that. I am too scattered , "anjatvac". Ash, I am sure I could get lost even with the voice commanded directions. Most of the time I am not "present" while driving. I arrive at the destination without realizing how I got there. And if I am ufamiliar with the area, I try to "tune" ito what I'm doig but still manage to get lost. But the upside is that every day is an adveture!

It's absurd ..the percentage of kids "diagnosed" with ADD or ADHD and quickley put on drugs. And the parents go for it.

Lying in me by Anna Akhmatova Lying in me, as though it were a white Stone in the depths of a well, is one Memory that I cannot, will not, fight: It is happiness, and it is pain. Anyone looking straight into my eyes Could not help seeing it, and could not fail To become thoughtful, more sad and quiet Than if he were listening to some tragic tale. I know the gods changed people into things, Leaving their consciousness alive and free. To keep alive the wonder of suffering, You have been metamorphosed into me.

To a Jilted Lover by Sylvia Plath Cold on my narrow cot I lie and in sorrow look through my window-square of black: figured in the midnight sky, a mosaic of stars diagrams the falling years, while from the moon, my lover's eye chills me to death with radiance of his frozen faith. Once I wounded him with so small a thorn I never thought his flesh would burn or that the heat within would grow until he stood incandescent as a god; now there is nowhere I can go to hide from him: moon and sun reflect his flame. In the morning all shall be the same again: stars pale before the angry dawn; the gilded cock will turn for me the rack of time until the peak of noon has come and by that glare, my love will see how I am still blazing in my golden hell.

Ssd to say I know. I wasn't alone. There is someone else (with an exiled soul ) who is just as lost as I am.. and perhaps you too? Funny thing is I am still fightig it.. I don't want to admit to myself that I am the problem. It is easier to believe that the whole universe is conspiring against me. Even the freeways are being altered just to spite me. Lol. Crazy I know... Inch eyq asum xentanalu masin...Sevak@ inch er asum?

Awwww. Jana.. shat gexecika...thank you for contributing.

The Balinese believe and strongly follow the belief that a person should always know at every second where he is, where he came from and where he is going. THey believe that your physical orientation and location has a direct effect on your spiritual orientation in the universe. If you are aimlessly wanderig about, then you must ot have much direction in life. THey plan all trips even to grocery stores, etc. so that they are always able to "maintai themselves- mentally and spiritually - at the intersection between a vertical and horizontal line, in a state of perfect balanc". Meaning someon who has no sense of direction while driving, walking, sense of where he is headed means he is also lost whitin himself. His soul has not found it's rightful direction or has strayed so far off path that he is lost in all meaning of the word. * Today as I got lost for the umpteenth time on the freeway, it hit me like a lightbulb...this is exactly what is wrong with my life. I need really good directions! And Mapquest ain't the answer. * Taken from eat, pray and love by E. Gilbert.

Can someone help me rotate the candle pic. Thanx.

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Kinda figured. Can't rotate. Comes out sideways. ...Working on it.

Taken w/ phone cam.

Ughaki- Arsen feat. Sirusho http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ITHX4aBjihw .."gone mi ban aseyir, gone mi ban spaseyir.."

My daughter has choreographed a special dance number for this song/ clip. They used to show it on channel Armenia very often..she would demand that we sit and watch her dance. Lol.

Happy Birthday Mindtrap! I hope you are still keeping up with your noble endeavors. Wishing you much luck and all the best always.

I know. They have tested me for that. And the findings were not "substantial" to confirm that. They said basically to go and come back when there is a real problem. They said if I was gaining weight then they would understad my concern, but since I was staying slender, they did not see the problem. But in all seriousness, my aunt and grandma are on daily thyroid medicine. I am sure heredity has given me that gift as well. I should see a new doctor soon, huh?

Ok Missy then help me. I need to gain 7 pounds whitin a month. I consume roughly 2300 calories a day. I know I should at least double that. Note that I have a very high metabolism. And I seldom to never stay inactive after eating. Someone told me that I should add a king sized Snickers bar and a grande coffee frappuccino to my daily intake (those are things I really like and would actually stick to). Any particular item I should be adding to my daily diet? Please don't say raw egg whites. And I tried those protein shakes from health food stotres (the powder) that you make into a smoothie but it gave me a really bad side effect. So please help me. I really want to gain the weight in time. Thanx in advance.

Zar, are you takig a Nutrition class or something along the lines? Lol. Everything you wrote is like a refresher from the one I took. And I misread the question you had asked previously. I thought that you were going to mention that your body digests meat slower than nayhting else you consume. It takes 5 days for it to be broken down. So you carry it around for a while before your body is able to dispose of it. I am sure the fiber sources, overall diet, and poor digestive system play a role too, but for the most part, a big juicy steak stays "with you" for a while.

I have to stop by Apple store tommorow during lunch. My top priority is to ffind out just that..how to eable Arm font on iPhone. Will let you know

I know what you're going to say!

Come on Sip. We aren't going there are we? Of course medical interventon should have been sought. Of course I think that the Jehova's Witnesses are crazy for not allowing blood transfusions, artificial resuscitation, etc. Who said that the use of medicine goes against God? I can see the stupidity of their actions just as you can. But a few religious fanatics have no bearing on spirituality or faith as a whole. And regarding prayer, you dont' pray to always get things your wasy- as you see fit. You pray for the strenght and courage to accept the things that are going to happen. Like death of a child. Because it is not for us to understand all of God's plans. It is for us to have faith and believe that it is al for a greater good. Believe me I was a non-believer for a few seconds too. But that was the scariest time of my life. It was not natural for me. I guess I would rather follow my truth and be viewed as a fool by some than be untrue to myself just so I can follow popular convention. To each his own. May I have my faith without you judging me to be inferior or less intelligent than you?

Every day God presents himself to me in various ways. I have never doubted his existance. I just know that men from antiquity have "edited" him/her/it to fit their ideals. I believe God is bigger and mre important than any church, or Pope or dogma. I have my spirituality and my faith in my God. I do not follow what others dictate. Because when I pray and my prayers are answered, or during my conversations with him, there are no conditions, restrictions or rules. It is a very pure exchange. And what I believe, feel and experience in relation to my God, no man can negate, trivialize or mock me for. I am too inteligent for that.

from Eleven Minutes: "If I were to tell someone about my life today, I could do it in a way that would make them think me a brave, happy independent woman. RUBBISH: I am not even allowed to mention the only word that is more important to me than the eleven minutes—love. All my life, I thought of love as some kind of voluntary enslavement. Well that’s a lie: freedom can only come when love is present. The person who gives his or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. And the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free. That is why, regardless of what I might experience, do or learn, nothing makes sense. I hope this time passes quickly, so that I can resume my search for myself- in the form of a man who understands me and does not make me suffer. But what am I saying? In love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel. It hurt when I lost each of the various men I fell in love with. Now, though, I am convinced that no one loses anyone, because no one owns anyone. That is the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.”

For a long time after I discovered Coelho’s writing, I did not share him with anyone I knew; did not recommend his works. I thought doing so would diminish the magic his words provided me with. So I kept him to myself from a small circle of people in my world.  My favorite work of his is By the River Piedra..call me a Romantic.  I have read almost all of his novels. His writing cleanses and refills my soul with goodness. His words are like magic. The following is an excerpt from Eleven Minutes (his most risqué work). “I’ve met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself myself to fall in love for a simple reason: I’m not expecting anything to come of it. I know that in three months’ time, I will be far away and he’ll be just a memory, but I couldn’t stand living without love any longer; I had reached my limit. I’m writing a story for Ralf Hart- that’s his name. I’m not sure he will come back to the club where I work, but, for the first time in my life, that doesn’t matter. It’s enough just to love him, to be with him in my thoughts and to color this lovely city with his steps, his words, his love. When I leave this country, it will have a face and a name and the memory of a fireplace. Everything else I experienced here, all the difficulties I had to overcome, will be nothing compared to that memory. I would like to do for him what he did for me. I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and I realize that I didn’t go into that café by chance; really important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other. Generally speaking, these meetings occur when we reach a limit, when we need to die and be reborn emotionally. These meeting are waiting for us, but more often than not, we avoid them happening. If we are desperate, though, if we have nothing to lose, or if we are full of enthusiasm for life, then the unknown reveals itself and our universe changes direction. Everyone knows how to love, because we are all born with that gift. Some people have a natural talent for it, but most of us have to re-learn, to remember how to love, and everyone, without exception, needs to burn on the bonfire of past emotions, to relive certain joys and griefs, certain ups and downs, until they can see the connecting thread that exists behind each new encounter; because there is a connecting thread. And then, our bodies learn to speak the language of the soul……”

:-) Ayo poqr zamerin shat lava stacvum qo mot. Thanks for the edit. :-) No more poetry ok?!?!? Lol.

anpayman...plz.. im hayeren@ shat basica Ash jan...I never had formal Armenian training whatsoever..so inch mtatsumem..etpes grumem.. waiting for help...