Seriously dude. Get a grip. Get real. There is no way in hell any other person is worth going through all this shit for. You’re putting all your hopes for a happy future into one being. It’s all bogus fantasies your mind’s conjuring up. It’s all in your head! Stop picturing good morning kisses and breakfast in bed…and sex. All this shit fades and at the end you’ll be left with no family, not many friends, and a marriage with many many problems because of the initial situation, and all the discontent surrounding it.
***. Stop being such a weakling.