todie4me33

ya i do work but like i said i cant live by myself. i think i would be very poor whatever it dosen't matter anyways ill find two jobs or something but im more concerned that how i would drive and get a car if i move away from them, well whatever i hope mernem or something

Dear Hyeforumers, I have seen that you all do a great job of giving young teens great advice, and I was wondering if some of you can seriously help me out. My name is Karine or Karin and I am 19. For many years now my mother and I constanly have fought and argued I mean constantly every other week. Sometimes very ridiciouls stuff, small stuff. My mother dosen't think im normal. she says she feels bad for the guy i will marry because "hye txa chi uzum hye axchik vor normal chi" that hurts when she says that, but whatever. We have fought so much now that my mother is zuzvatz from me, I also have said many words and stuff to hurt her and words that not cuss words but just stupid stuff I think can hurt her and she said she would never forgive me for. She tells me she is sick of me and she wants me out of the house. For many years she has said that, but now we are moving and she wants me to seriously look for a place to go. I dont mean everything I say and I have apologized so much that the word sorry is meaningless just like hello or goodbye like sorry is nothing. I really pray to god that things will get better that I will change and I seriously do pray and I cry and ask god for help and forgivness. But things dont get any better for me and my realtionship with my mom. For the past six years I have had a low self esteem because of this and have cried everyday, its very unhealthy i know. I ask my sisters for help they tell me dont tell me your problems etc. My eyes are red from typing because I get so emotional from explaning my problem. My mother also has caught me lying about stupid stuff and now that I tell the truth she still thinks im lying.. I have tried to fix things so they can get better, she says that I am a nothing to her and the word mom, when i say mom, shes like am i your mom? I dont know what to do anymore my eyes are out of tears and i am scared i cant live on my own, she says living on my own will teach me. I fee like i have been such a pain for her all these years and all she has done for me i have took adavnatge of. I dont think i can aaford a apt. because i am still young with a part time job. Do you guys think my mom really loves me? is she saying those things for what to scare me to move out for reals? please take the chance to read this and help me out i would appreciate it greatly thank you so much ~Karine