I go through many phases. In general I like phases. I can't remain static, I have a difficult time developing habits and routines. I probably lack discipline. The strange thing about it is that I actually like being that way and can't imagine my life being anything else. Yes, I embrace change and unpredictable outcome, which I will most likely analyze until I am mumbling the solution in my dreams. Even my addictions are temporary. I often feel sad when I'm over them, because I truly enjoy them. I was addicted to smoking. I enjoyed the sheer pleasure of inhaling the rancid smoke of a single fag, usually sitting by the window of my room in my mother's home, looking at the tree branches blocking the view of the courtyard. I enjoyed waking up with a hearty cough of a 90 year old woman with a hoarse voice and pruned skin. I enjoyed it until I couldn't enjoy it anymore because it was time to move on. So I became de-addicted. Several other addictions later I am addicted to Lost. As usual it took me a very long time to catch up to the buzz, the new trendy thing in the world, but this time I was at least able to get addicted while the show is still in progress. Now my addiction is about to end, since the last episode of the show is to be aired in May. I feel really sad. I need a new fix. I need a new addiction. How else am I going to catch a glimpse of Jack Sheppard's loose breasts. What else can I get addicted to? Perhaps I can start collecting foodstamps?