Hello, I am Zack Aslanian-Williams, a 21 year old black Armenian from Northern California. My maternal family, the Armenian side, is large, supportive, and close, but I have little direct contact with Armenians outside of the family. I want to remedy this, but I'm honestly not a big fan of California Armenians. Many have adopted white perspectives on black and brown people and are therefore hostile toward me. It seems that the other half of the Cali-Armenian community that is not racist has gone to the other extreme and embraced ghetto black culture, which I find amusing. My plan for getting in touch with my Armenian-ness is to volunteer in Armenia this summer. There's a program called Armenian Birthright that works, with affiliate organizations like the Armenian Volunteer Corps, to get people in Diaspora back to Armenia help the people of Armenia in their quest for stability and prosperity. The application process for these programs is highlighting for me serious deficiencies in my Armenian-ness. For one, I don't speak, read, or write Armenian. I love my mother and grandmother -one gave me life and the other taught my classical piano- but they were straight negligent in this regard. I’m not too worried about this one. I learn languages pretty easily. I just need a good textbook and some time with my elders. My other deficiency is tougher; it’s my pretty unorthodox perspective on Armenian heritage. I don't care that Hayasdan converted to Christianity before Rome did, because I don’t care much for Christianity. I am a serious historical scholar (as much as a 21 year old undergraduate student can be) and in my scholarly opinion, Armenia’s heritage is not tied to Europe or Russia but to the Middle East and Central Asia. When I look at Armenian history, I look to the Persians, Arabs, Mongols, Mamelukes, and Ottomans as our most important historical neighbors, while most Armenians look to Greece, Rome, Byzantium, Crusader Kilikia, and Russia. I know the Genocide was a horrible thing and so was the 1990’s war with Azerbijian. However, I’m tired of smart and educated Armenians downplaying loads of historical interaction with the East to exaggerate their Christian, white, and European credentials because such credentials (especially white and European) are not valuable to me. I know that I’ll do a good job and have a great time in Armenia. I don’t intend to spark-up theological and historical debates. I intend to be contributory and productive in the community, to meet people, to learn a lot, and to have fun. I’m going to help Armenians and hopefully come home feeling more Armenian. As is typical of people of my generation, I’ve written an essay-long rant and don’t really know what I’m asking for in response. I guess I’m just looking for advice, both in general and also regarding how I should respond to this prompt from the AVC application: Please write a statement (500-800 words) explaining your reasons for wanting to volunteer in Armenia, how these reasons are related to your past experience (living/studying in a foreign country or in the Armenian community in your home town), and how they might fit in with your future goals. Comment on what you expect to contribute to Armenia through your service and what you expect to receive. Please provide an example of a significant experience—drawing from school, work, home or abroad—that illustrates your ability to adapt cross-culturally and to overcome difficulties. If necessary, attach a separate sheet of paper. Thank you!