I agree with Anoushik about your nice avatar.
Armat jan; I am a Christian and though I feel from what you're saying about the emptiness; but that's exactly why I have turned to God more so. I have also felt many times out of sorts and I still do every now and then, we all do. But prayers with belief and reading from the Bible and finding the truth from from it helped me. I am also a very artistic person and I appreciate the arts and culture, to have some common grounds with you; but I also find great many answers and fulfillments in God's words.
That's all I have to say really. It's up to you to take the path you want to take; but one day if you want to try something new and suddenly decide to pick up a Bible and read from it, you'll understand where I'm coming from.
Also with one of our members that doesn't post any more in here; I think you know him, Sassun believed in Buddhism as well.
I hope you'll find the truth whatever that may be for you sometime soon.
Thanks for the Avatar just a random image
I am glad it works for you(reading the Bible) but I can't even turn 1 page before total boredom sets in.