Posted 22 October 2010 - 08:09 AM
Rewell,
You mentioned that God is the source of all goodness, which I agree. You made the statement, "I have a faith that we are heaven-worthy if and only if we are doing good and we are obeying God's commandments with exactness."
The Bible says that even if you break one of God's commandments, you are guilty of all of them (James 2:10 "For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles in one point, he has become guilty of all"). What this means is that you will never be able to keep all of God's commandments with exactness. God never intended that. God's commandments are like a mirror to reveal to us that we fail to keep God's commands. At the same time, there is only one person who ever kept God's command perfectly, Jesus Christ (1 Peter 2:22 "Who committed no sin, nor was any deceit found in His mouth"). Jesus lived the perfect life we could never live, and then God punished man's sins on Jesus, the punishment we deserved (2 Corinthians 5:21 "He made Him who knew no sin to be sin on our behalf, so that we might become the righteousness of God in Him").
The Bible states that the only way to gain God's acceptance is by faith in Jesus, you cannot earn God's favor (Romans 3:28 "For we maintain that a man is justified ("made right with God") by faith apart from the works of the Law"; Ephesians 2:8-9 "For by grace you have been saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God; not as a result of works, so that no one may boast").
Our response should be to turn away from our sin and to turn to Jesus. That means to have faith (believe and trust) in Jesus. Believe that Jesus was God's one and only Son who lived a perfect life and then was crucified on a roman cross to pay the punishment for sin, and then rose three days later. Trust that Jesus is the only one who could pay the punishment that your sins deserve and He is the only one who can change you so that you can obey God (Romans 3:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord"). Then and only then can you be fully rid guilt, regret, and nightmares (Romans 8:1 "Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus"). I encourage you today to place your faith in Jesus.
Take care,
Rog